I am feeling much better today. It is just that one day that really brings me down.
Chuckie asked me if I wanted to go to Vegas in June. Of course it’ll totally depend on whether we have our rebate money by then and honestly I just don’t think we will, but we’ll see. I am not one to be completely spontaneous, so the mere thought of not reserving a room weeks in advance makes my eyeballs sweat. But of course there’s no reserving a room if there is no extra money to be had, so…it’s a waiting game. A leave the weekend open just in case we go game…a plan on going, make plans if you don’t go game. I don’t like that game.
But my husband wants to do something. And doing something together is not something we do a lot of. I wish his idea of entertainment was a little cheaper, but seriously, my husband and I need time together. Separate vacations only go so far in the distance makes the heart grow fonder thing. Eventually separate vacations become the norm because they are so much easier and much more convenient. We have such different interests that sometimes finding something we’d both enjoy is very difficult. I don’t mind Vegas, it’s a fun place for a people watcher like me. I like to sit with my husband while he plays blackjack and just watch people. Or I’ll sit at a slot machine and watch the people around me. I can make $20 last a long time at a slot machine because I am much more interested in the nuances and superstitions of the people close to me. I suppose we all have those routines though…maybe not for gambling…but in life. Repetitions we do that don’t really make the difference as to how something turns out. the order we do things in because it is the order we have ALWAYS done things in and they have always worked so far. Why change a good thing?
I am so exhausted and I truly do not understand it. I had nine solid and two not-so-solid hours of sleep last night. I crashed, despite my best intentions, at 7pm. I hate going to sleep that early because then I end up waking up much earlier then I plan to. I woke up at 9pm when Chuckie came to bed. I probably could have slept through him coming to bed if I hadn’t been laying across the bed and the bed had been made. So for the next two hours I tried to sleep but every time Chuckie would roll over or every time I heard something I was awake again. I remember looking at the clock a little after 11pm and then I was out until the alarm went off at 5:30am. Of course I was still exhausted so I slept off and on until 6:30am. that should have been plenty enough sleep to feel well rested, but I don’t. I could easily crawl under my desk and take a short nap. I wonder why that is? I wonder why you’d care.
We are studying Ecclesiastes in home group right now. Today I was reading Ecclesiastes 8:16-9:12 and was drawn to this passage.
I also saw other things in this life that were not fair: the fastest runner does not always win the race; the strongest army does not always win the battle; the wisest man does not always get the food he earns; the smartest man does not always get the wealth; and an educated person does not always get the praise he deserves. When the time comes, bad things happen to everyone! Ecc 9:11 ERV
Of course I know that the book of Ecclesiastes speaks a lot about life being meaningless, about it not being fair, but this one verse really seemed to sum up life. We don’t always get what we deserve or what we think we deserve. Bad things happen to everyone! They happen, like it or not, they happen! That’s life.
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