Each day has enough trouble of its own

As a general rule, I am not a worrier.  Not to say that I don’t ever worry, of course sometimes I do, but not usually, not often.  Worry doesn’t usually keep me up at nights.

Tonight is different.  Tonight I sit here almost afraid to go to sleep for fear that I won’t hear my phone if it rings.  I am notorious for sleeping through my alarm so why would my phone be any different?

My mom isn’t feeling well and has been having chest pains for I don’t know how many days.  I have been encouraging her to go to the doctors and today when she called they told her that she should go to the emergency room.  My mother is stubborn.  STUBBORN!  Especially when it comes to anything medical.  She waits until the last possible minute to seek medical attention and this time I am afraid.

There is no dragging her there either.  If she does not want to go there is nothing I can do but wait and be ready to go when she is ready to go.

Of course my dad is out of town and so she is home alone which scares me too.  Maybe I should have stayed over there tonight.  perhaps that would have eased my mind a little.

I am concerned/worried about my mom.  She has not taken very good care of her health.  She has been a smoker for well over thirty years, she has high blood pressure that she doesn’t treat, she doesn’t sleep well and she doesn’t have very healthy eating habits.

It’s time to spend some time with the only One that can provide me with a reprieve from my worry.  Time for prayer before I head off to sleep.  Time to worry less and trust in Him more.  He is in control.